The Bachelor season 22 contestant, Bekah Martinez, shared a video of her birthing son to the world despite her insecurities.
This past Tuesday, Martinez shared a powerful video of her son Franklin James‘ June 19 home water birth and the moments before she and boyfriend Grayston Leonard welcomed him into the world.
Martinez can be seen in the clip laboring throughout her home and in the birthing tub while women fan her to keep her cool. And halfway through the clip, Franklin is actually shown being born.
The mother of two admits that she “felt nervous about sharing this video” initially, despite the birthing experience being “beyond what she could have hoped for” and “a dream come true.”
“Strangely though, the footage felt so raw and primal that I was actually uncomfortable watching it back,” Martinez recalls in her video caption.
Martinez admits she “came to a couple conclusions” after sitting with her feelings for a bit. First “I truly was scared of the mean things people might say about something so sacred to me,” she shares.
“But also, more importantly, I realized that I felt uncomfortable watching myself in that much POWER,” Martinez continues.
“I realized I still had so many negative, subconscious, deeply-embedded thoughts telling me that I wasn’t feminine enough; that I looked and sounded weird. I projected so many insecurities onto an experience that was truly one of the most powerful, magical moments of my life.”
“This is a moment worth sharing; so in advance — f— the haters ♥️,” she concludes, before thanking Leonard, her videographer, her midwife as well as her mother.
Of the supportive comments was one from Jamie Otis, who told Martinez, “Legit in tears watching this! You are a warrior, mama!”
“Thank you for helping me (and so many women) realize the strength we have within on so.many.levels!” she added, “Thank you so much for sharing this! I’m in awe of you! Love you, Bekah! ????????????”
Watch the full video below!
With a background in the creative and educational fields, Amelia Finefrock is freelance writer, singer-songwriter and nanny based in Chicago.