Paris Hilton Explains Why She Decided to Use a Surrogate When Welcoming Her First Child With Husband, Carter Reum

If it weren’t for surrogacy, Paris Hilton wouldn’t be a mother today. The reality TV star and socialite recently welcomed her first child with husband Carter Reum via surrogacy, and she couldn’t be happier – it’s something she has always dreamed of, but now it’s a reality. The baby’s name is Phoenix Barron. 

MamasUncut has previously reported on the meaning and inspiration behind the name, as well as her decision to keep the baby a secret from immediate family for more than a week after his birth – adding she wanted to enjoy the moment with her husband before outlets started to pick up on the exciting news.

On Thursday, GLAMOUR UK honored Hilton as the February cover star for their digital issue, which was coupled with an exclusive interview. She talked about a lot of things – one of which being her decision to use a surrogate, as opposed to giving birth herself. Contrary to popular belief, it has nothing to do with age.

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Instead, her decision was tied to the sexual abuse she suffered through while attending Provo Canyon School in Utah at the age of 16. She previously opened up about the experience – which included nonconsensual cervical exams in the middle of the night – in October during an interview with the New York Times. 

“Sleep-deprived & heavily medicated, I didn’t understand what was happening. I was forced to lie on a padded table, spread my legs & submit to cervical exams. I cried while they held me down & said, “No!” They just said, “Shut up. Be quiet. Stop struggling, or you’ll go to Obs,” she explained in a Twitter thread.

The experience continues to haunt her today, explaining to GLAMOUR that being in a doctor’s office – especially anything related to pregnancy – makes her feel uncomfortable and brings up memories she doesn’t want to relive. She also spoke about a traumatizing experience she had on set of The Simple Life.

“I had to be in a room when a woman was giving birth, and that traumatized me as well. But I want a family so bad, it’s just the physical part of doing it. I’m just so scared … childbirth and death are the two things that scare me more than anything in the world,” she explained of her decision to use a surrogate. 

Paris Hilton Was Also Drugged and Raped at 15

Before her experience at Provo Canyon School, Paris Hilton endured another traumatizing experience when approached by a group of men at the Century City Mall in LA. It was a place she and her friends would often visit as a teenager, and it wasn’t out of the norm for her to exchange numbers with guys. 

This one group of guys, in particular, invited Hilton – along with one of her friends – to their home to drink and hang out. While she wasn’t a fan of alcohol back then, she decided to take a couple of sips of what she described as ‘berry wine coolers.’ Moments later, she remembers feeling ‘dizzy and woozy’ from the drink. 

“I don’t know what he put in there, I’m assuming it was a roofie,” she said of the drink. It wasn’t until a few hours later that the then-15-year-old woke up. “I remembered it. I have visions of him on top of me, covering my mouth, being like, ‘You’re dreaming, you’re dreaming,’ and whispering that in my ear.”

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Despite all the trauma she has endured through the years, Paris Hilton is happy to be where she is today – living her best life with her husband, Carter Reum, and their new baby boy, Phoenix Barron Hilton Reum. “I think I’ve just been through so many things that I’m a warrior, I’m a fighter, I’m brave. And I’m a badass.”