Sienna Miller is opening up about the trauma of having her pregnancy leaked by the press when she was only 23 years old.
In July of 2005, her then-fiancé, actor Jude Law, was publicly exposed for cheating on her with his kids’ nanny, after excerpts from the nanny’s diary documenting the affair were shared with the world.
Then, weeks later, Page six reported that it was “looking more and more likely” that the young actor was pregnant, according to inside sources. That being said it was never confirmed if the pregnancy was with Jude.
And while Sienna decided to end the pregnancy, she has since revealed that the invasion of her privacy “took away” her ability to properly think about that decision.
Reflecting on this time period in her interview with the Guardian, Sienna said that the leak of her pregnancy while also dealing with the raw emotions of Jude’s cheating scandal was “hell.”
“Appearing in public when you’re extremely heartbroken. Trying not to break. All the while being mocked and ridiculed,” she said. “Hell, honestly.”
And while the reports were first published by Page Six in the US, the news of Sienna’s pregnancy was first discovered by UK tabloid the Sun.
In December of last year, 16 years after the leak, Sienna reached a private settlement with the Sun, who she believes illegally sought medical records from her doctor to find out about the pregnancy.
At the time of the hearing last year, Sienna stated that she hoped to take the tabloid to trial, but admitted that it would not be financially viable, accepting an undisclosed settlement instead.
However, she does maintain that the Sun was guilty of “blagging” her medical information by pretending to be one of her representatives.
Sienna cited an unusual phone call from her doctor led her to believe that her medical records had been tampered with.
“My doctor phoned and said, ‘We sent the documents you asked for.’ And I said, ‘I didn’t ask for any documents,’” she said.
She also recalled that at the time of the leak, only three of her close friends knew about the pregnancy.
“I mean, there’s no f****** way they could’ve known that from someone [I knew] — literally my three best friends were the only ones who knew,” she said. “I realized pretty soon that [the Sun] was blagging medical records.”
She shared how the “anxiety” of the leak, along with the heartbreak of her split from Jude, made her unable to think “clearly” about ending the pregnancy.
“The anxiety it induced. At the time, it removed any ability I had to think clearly about making a decision. I was in an absolute panic, and already dealing with a huge amount of pain,” she said.
She now accused the “vicious” media outlets of capitalizing off of Jude’s public cheating scandal, saying: “There’s a weak link in human psychology, which is the part that makes us slow down on a motorway and look at an accident. That’s what tabloids exploit.”
“It was a collegial environment, where that’s what they were doing, and it was probably exciting,” Sienna said. “I understand if you just detach from the fact that there’s a human being [at the other end of it], you can get sucked into a way of behaving that you are really not proud of, ultimately. And I think that a lot of people look back on it and probably feel pretty disgusted at what they did.”
However, after reaching a settlement with Sienna, the Sun maintains that it did not use unlawful means to learn of her pregnancy. The settlement was met on the basis that there would be no admission of illegal activity at the tabloid.
Looking back, Sienna says time will need to pass for her to process it all.
“It was at the same time as really falling in love, and having magical times,” she said. “I look back on that decade with mostly fond memories. I can really dissociate my life from that person — put it in a box where it feels like somebody else.”
She added: “It was such an enormous part of my life. And it’s still being bashed out.”
With a background in the creative and educational fields, Amelia Finefrock is freelance writer, singer-songwriter and nanny based in Chicago.
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