ashley stock shares emotional and heartbreaking photos from the day they laid their 3-year-old daughter to rest following a battle with a brain tumor

Ashley Stock Shares Emotional and Heartbreaking Photos From the Day They Laid Their 3-Year-Old Daughter to Rest Following a Battle With a Brain Tumor

Influencer Ashley Stock has laid her 3-year-old daughter to rest following her battle with brain cancer. After being diagnosed with the tumor in April, little Stevie passed away on May 27.

Following Stevie’s passing, Stock took to Instagram to share a statement. She wrote that she has “complete faith” that the tragedy of losing her 3-year-old daughter has a greater purpose.

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“This is my life now”. That sentence plays in my head several times daily. Sometimes i catch myself whispering it out loud. I still can’t tell if I’m phrasing it as a question or a mantra. Perhaps both. I suppose it depends on the moment. Because there are definitely times when I’m wading in peace about the new path the Lord has placed before us. But then, there are the mornings…when i wake up, and for a split second, i think this could all be a terrible nightmare and I’ll get out of bed and walk back into the life i signed up for. Then reality hits my like a punch to the gut. A lump forms in my throat and it becomes hard to swallow. Suddenly I’m torn between going back to sleep to stop the pain or rushing to scoop up my baby girl and soak up every single moment with her. I’m choosing the moments over the sleep. I can sleep later. I can breakdown later. For now, I trace the invisible line from the middle of her forehead down to the tip of her nose with my finger at least a hundred times a day. I’m memorizing the way her features relax with my touch. I’m saying silent prayers that i never forget the way her skin feels on mine. I’m smelling her salty hair and her sticky neck and her sweet little toes and wishing there was a way to bottle her scent up forever. I gently tickle her belly button and massage her head and tell her constantly that she is safe, she is loved, she is perfect, she makes me happy and I’m so proud of her. ????: @michellebeller

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“We have complete faith in there being a greater purpose of this tragedy (and it’s already unfolding through your stories of renewed hope). But, unfortunately, faith is not a ‘get out of pain-free’ card, and that’s okay. I don’t know how to do this, so, for now, we’ll continue one day at a time held by the grace of God, the support of loved ones, and the prayers of strangers who have become friends.”

Now, Stevie has been laid to rest. Along with a series of pictures from her funeral, Stock quoted a song from the Broadway hit, Hamilton called It’s Quiet Uptown.

“There are moments that the words don’t reach. There is suffering too terrible to name. You hold your child as tight as you can. And push away the unimaginable. The moments when you’re in so deep. It feels easier to just swim down. They move uptown. And learn to live with the unimaginable.

If I could spare (her) life. If I could trade (her) life for mine. She’d be standing here right now. And you would smile, and that would be enough. I don’t pretend to know. The challenges we’re facing. I know there’s no replacing what we’ve lost. And you need time. But I’m not afraid. I know who I married. Just let me stay here by your side. That would be enough.”

The mom of three also shared what her last moments with Stevie were like a week after her passing. And how they almost mimicked the moment they first met.

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Dear Stevie, it’s been one week since you took your last breath in my arms while Stevie Nicks Landslide quietly played in the background—the same song that played in the delivery room when you entered this world. Today i drive home from my first trip to the grocery store in over a month and my mama instinct still thinks you’re behind me in your seat. We’ll pass the trash trucks and fire trucks and the outline of the white moon in a blue sky. I’m waiting to hear your little voice yell out “mommy look, look. Trash truck. Fire truck. Dah moooon. So pretty”. But it’s only silence. And then I’m the mama hysterically crying at the stoplight looking in my rear view mirror at an empty bucket seat that used to house your car seat. It’s the same when i pass the diaper aisle at target and the cute little girl clothes. Or when I’m digging for my keys in my purse and pull out one of your binkies. Or the big girl bed we were ready to transition you to that sits in our garage. Everything is you. I’ve built my life and my heart around you and your brothers and while the joy still exists all around me, none of it feels even close to the same without you. Living this broken feels impossible, but baby girl, i promise I’m looking for your miracles around every corner. Even from the other side, you’re keeping me going. We’ve got work to do, hugs to give and hearts to heal. #stevielynnstock #dipg #starsforstevie #letterstostevie

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“Dear Stevie, it’s been one week since you took your last breath in my arms while Stevie Nicks Landslide quietly played in the background—the same song that played in the delivery room when you entered this world,” Stock shared with her followers.

“Today I drive home from my first trip to the grocery store in over a month and my mama instinct still thinks you’re behind me in your seat. We’ll pass the trash trucks and fire trucks and the outline of the white moon in a blue sky. I’m waiting to hear your little voice yell out, ‘Mommy look, look. Trash truck. Firetruck. Dah moooon. So pretty.’ But it’s only silence. And then I’m the mama hysterically crying at the stoplight looking in my rearview mirror at an empty bucket seat that used to house your car seat.”

The grieving mom went on to share it’s the same reaction when she passes the diaper aisle at Target or the cute little girl clothes. It’s the same when she’s looking for her keys and finds one of Stevie’s binkies, or when she goes into the garage and sees the big girl bed they were getting ready to set up for their little girl.

“Everything is you. I’ve built my life and my heart around you and your brothers and while the joy still exists all around me, none of it feels even close to the same without you,” Stock continued. “Living this broken feels impossible, but baby girl, I promise I’m looking for your miracles around every corner. Even from the other side, you’re keeping me going. We’ve got work to do, hugs to give and hearts to heal.”

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Our thoughts and prayers are with the Stock family during this extremely difficult time.

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