Tori Roloff recently posted about her struggles this past year to Instagram along with the guilt she feels on behalf of her kids.
Before launching into her world, Roloff prefaces the emotional post with an acknowledgement of her privilege.
“I KNOW I’m not the only one struggling. I KNOW I’m in a very privileged position. I KNOW I am being selfish. I KNOW people see and believe different that I do. But oh????????my????????dern.”
The mother of two then touched on how she has grappled with her feelings, especially when it comes to her kids.
“I’ve been struggling to accept my world right now. I’ve been struggling coming to terms with how long this mess has gone on and how I still see no light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve been struggling with the guilt I feel for my kids-especially Lilah.”
Roloff goes on to reveal in more detail what has been heavy on her heart these past few months.
“We’ve had some pretty rough stuff hit our house the last two months and I struggle with having to attend doctors or medical appointments alone. Without my teammate by my side.”
In addition, she also acknowledges how it is difficult to share her life, especially when it doesn’t feel genuine.
“I struggle sharing my life when sometimes it doesn’t feel authentic because our world is so upside down and backwards right now.”
“[I’m] sharing this only in hopes that someone reads it and doesn’t feel alone. We’re not alone. I get that. I thank the Lord every single day that my family is here and healthy. Maybe I’m sharing also to not feel alone.”
But in the midst of fear, Roloff reminds her followers how her faith inspires her to keep going.
“Some days can feel so clouded by what’s truth and whats fear. My truth is God and because God is with me I will not be afraid. But I can still vent about it on Instagram right?”
With a background in the creative and educational fields, Amelia Finefrock is freelance writer, singer-songwriter and nanny based in Chicago.