Alyssa Scott Shares Message of Grief Ahead of Christmas Morning Weeks After Losing the Son She Shared With Nick Cannon

Model Alyssa Scott, who shared a child with host Nick Cannon, is opening up about their recent loss. As Mamas Uncut previously reported, five months ago, Nick Cannon and Alyssa Scott welcomed a baby boy into the world in June.

The couple named their son Zen Scott Cannon. Sadly, on December 5, Zen lost his battle with brain cancer after being diagnosed months earlier. The parents opted to keep their son’s battle private up until his tragic passing. Cannon opened up about his son’s passing on his self-named talk show.

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“Before the show started in the summertime, Zen was born in June, on June 23, actually. And it was a great day, as you know I got a lot of kids. During the summer it was exciting… but I always noticed he had, like, a sinus thing, like a cough. And I just wanted to check it out,” Cannon explained. “But he always had this real interesting breathing.”

It was the routine checkup to check on Zen’s breathing that revealed the excess fluid in the infant’s brain. Cannon went on to say from that moment on he embraced every moment he had with his Zen and basked in the moment when his other children got to love on his youngest son as well. 

“I’m so grateful to my entire family for coming together during this time and being so loving and not judgmental of me,” Cannon said in his statement before praising Zen’s mother for being a pillar of strength. She’s “the strongest woman I’ve ever seen cause she never had an argument, never was angry, was emotional when she needed to be, but was always the best mom and continues to be the best mom possible.”

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Alyssa Scott Shares Message of Grief Ahead of Christmas Morning Weeks After Losing the Son She Shared With Nick Cannon

Zen’s mom, Alyssa Scott, hasn’t been as open as Cannon following the passing of her baby boy. However, on December 23, Scott reflected on what would have been Zen’s first Christmas if he were still with them.

Along with a photo of a red Christmas onesie draped over Zen’s crib, Alyssa wrote, “I was so excited for him to wear this [My First Christmas] onesie. I have had it laying out since Thanksgiving.”

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Alyssa then continued by sharing a bit about her grief. “Maybe you close the door to the nursery. Maybe you leave it open. Maybe you have boxed some things away—maybe you still fold and put them in the drawers. This is where I’m at. Walking by his room, sometimes going in. Washing some of his clothes but putting aside others that still have his scent.”

“A pile is growing because I don’t know exactly what to do but I’m not rushing myself to a decision. I am thinking of all who are grieving this holiday season. I am also reading your messages and keeping them close to me during this time.”

Our thoughts and prayers are also with those dealing with grief this holiday season. Sadly, it is far too common.

Shortly after the reveal of Zen’s passing, Alyssa shared a compilation video of some of their moments together, moments including bonding time between Zen and her oldest child and moments of him in the hospital.

“Oh, my sweet Zen. The soreness I felt in my arm from holding you is slowly fading away. It’s a painful reminder that you are no longer here. I caught myself looking in the backseat as I was driving only to see the mirror no longer reflecting your perfect face back at me,” Scott shared at the time. “When I close a door too loudly I hold my breath and wince knowing a soft cry will shortly follow. It doesn’t come. The silence is deafening.”

“These last 5 months we have been in this race together. We would hand the baton off to each other. You kept me going. It would be the middle of the night and you would smile at me. A surge of energy would fill my body and pure joy would radiate from within me. We were a team, both determined to see it through. It feels unbearable running without you now. I can’t,” Scott concluded. “And, in this moment, I feel myself being carried. By your sister… By God. By complete strangers encouraging me to not give up. It has been an honor and privilege being your mommy. I will love you for eternity.”

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