Being a new mom is hard, but it was made even more challenging for Khloé Kardashian because she found out her then-boyfriend, Tristan Thompson, had been cheating on her with multiple women. As if giving birth wasn’t stressful enough, videos of Thompson kissing other women were released just one day before Khloé gave birth to their daughter, True.
Khloé recently opened up about the impact the scandal had on her first few months of motherhood. “Pain wasn’t my problem,” she told Kourtney Kardashian in a conversation featured on Kourtney’s lifestyle website, Poosh. “I think parents go through pain for their kids; they don’t care. I would’ve gone through any pain – whatever’s best for her. I just wasn’t producing milk.”
“I was under a lot of stress,” the Keeping Up with the Kardashian’s star continued. “There was a lot going on in my life at the time that I think played a part in why I wasn’t producing as easily.” Like many new moms who deal with a decrease in supply, Khloé said she tried a number of things to try and produce more milk.
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“I would eat the stupid cookies, I would drink the stupid tea, I’d be on this diet, I would pump every time she was napping, but it never stopped,” she told her sister. “As soon as I would pump, she would wake up and I would have to breastfeed her again,” she continued. “My breasts were bleeding. It was horrible. I was like, ‘It’s just not working.’”
Making things even more stressful was the fact that Khloé had moved to Cleveland, Ohio to be with Tristan, leaving behind her support network of family and friends. “Stress played into it,” she said. “And also being alone in Cleveland by myself — not having any family there. I was really lonely.”
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“And sometimes I felt that when she was asleep, maybe I just need to shower? Or maybe I just needed 20 minutes to Zen out rather than pump?” Eventually, Khloé opted to make the switch to formula, determining it was what was best for True.
“She was hungry, had really bad acid reflux, and once she started losing weight, the doctor said, ‘We have to start mixing formula.’” As many moms have experienced, the switch to formula can be coupled with feelings of guilt. Khloé admitted that she felt like a “failure” for making the switch to formula, even though she knew it was the right choice to stop breastfeeding.
“Once I stopped, the amount of pressure that was lifted off my shoulders — I could actually enjoy my daughter,” she said. “Knowing that she’d had enough food gave me security — made me feel safe. I did not feel safe breastfeeding.” When it comes to motherhood, it’s important to block out the outside noise and just do what is best for you and your children.
When I’m not hanging out with my three-year-old and husband in Brooklyn, I’m busy writing stories for Mamas Uncut and managing PR + Marketing for Magnolia Bakery, based in New York City. On weekends, you can usually find me at a local park or playground pushing my daughter on the swings, “researching” the best almond croissants in Park Slope or launching into impromptu family dance parties at home, the sidewalk or, every once in awhile, a restaurant bathroom. I’m still trying to master the whole parenting thing, but I have learned that copious amounts of coffee, humor and humility are involved on a daily basis.